The Idea of Realization

By Araceli Ortiz Vasquez

The Idea of Realization is a poem I wrote describing the realization that I felt very alone as a person of color in my field of study and the work that I have done to lessen this feeling through finding community.

This was the creation of the true awakening

a headache with time

realization the power in unity and persistence

something growing within all

tired, tired of awakening to a new day

where I believe that an unchanging perspective could get me through these ominous days,

but this is where judgement faltered

this sense of responsibility, created through the simplicity of words

it carried the burden, suffering and fight of so many

those thoughts are made of nothing, they perhaps make me feel insecure

am I the only one with this problem?

it wanders and crawls until it is complete again

the lack, it is what drives me further into insanity

a state that I've been living in, and somehow cannot escape

or do you remember feeling this way,

as it all fell apart, but spread furthermore

I fell into something far…

the idea of it all

forgive the constructed agony