By Araceli Ortiz Vasquez
The Idea of Realization is a poem I wrote describing the realization that I felt very alone as a person of color in my field of study and the work that I have done to lessen this feeling through finding community.
This was the creation of the true awakening
a headache with time
realization the power in unity and persistence
something growing within all
tired, tired of awakening to a new day
where I believe that an unchanging perspective could get me through these ominous days,
but this is where judgement faltered
this sense of responsibility, created through the simplicity of words
it carried the burden, suffering and fight of so many
those thoughts are made of nothing, they perhaps make me feel insecure
am I the only one with this problem?
it wanders and crawls until it is complete again
the lack, it is what drives me further into insanity
a state that I've been living in, and somehow cannot escape
or do you remember feeling this way,
as it all fell apart, but spread furthermore
I fell into something far…
the idea of it all
forgive the constructed agony